Things that disturb transparency

 Things that disturb transparency

The biggest Archetype: Ego

I continued to try to calm down my ego process for decades years, now slowly it is able to catch the subtle signal when my ego comes up transparently.

Until now I could not notice the timing because my ego did not calm down enough.

Maybe, the ego is the biggest Archetype that is imprinted in the collective unconsciousness for us. Now everybody has it, and nobody noticed that ego is the Archetype as the same as other Archetype, Anima, Animus, Great mother, Trickster, Superego, God, Devil, Spirit, Ghost, Monster, and so on.

It is the most familiar tendency for the daily body and mind. In this capitalist economy, without it we can’t survive. But, in the creative realm, it is the biggest disturbance.

 

When ego comes out

 

I noticed that there are two typical tendencies which the ego comes up. One is the moment when the ego receives uncomfortable pressure from outside. This is easy to understand when we feel pressure which we are pressed, ego takes the role to guard ourselves.

Another one is the moment when ego inflates by self-conceit,

proud, praise, and so on. This case becomes a blind spot for us often.

Especially when we feel, "I got big discovery!", it is the crisis which ego comes up and possesses us.

In eight channels, I describe the typical moment when the ego comes up and binds us.

 

1. Body channel

When we receive unpleasant pressure from outside, ego comes up as a guard immediately.

Also when we are possessed by habit, like addiction, daily routine work and so on, ego controls us. The ego feels that I am the owner of this body with satisfaction.

This kind of ego is so strong like an instinct. It is so hard to control it. We just need to become aware of them. It's enough for the first stage.

 

2. Movement channel

When we move according to a plan, like a strict choreography, ego has to wake up and control us. Ego controls ourselves by dualistic judgment--right/wrong, good/bad, beautiful/ugly, and so on.

When we are released from ego, we can improvise flexibly between us choreograph and accidental events. I call this method: "Real-time resonance".

It is not so easy. When we are released from ego enough, we can do it.

 

3. Visual channel

When we are bound by an archetype of sense of beauty which is considered as normal in a society, our egos are bound also by them and guide us to be in a beautiful way. Ego inhibits us to go out of the border unconsciously.

Almost all persons feel resistance to warp one's intelligent face because ego inhibits us strongly. It is the edge of the visual channel. Ego considers that the ugly face does not belong to me, it belongs to "not-me".

"Not-me" is a dissociated self like a sub-character, shadow, inferior character. Subbodies include them.

 

4. Audio channel

Our audio channel is bound by the archetypes like as human language, twelve scales of normal music.

Our daily bodies are trained by them for a long time, we believe that they belong to a human.

The ego receives unpleasant feelings from the sounds, voices out of the "human".

But when we are released from these archetypes, we can create the novel beauty world where the daily body does not feel beautiful.

 

5. Emotion channel

When we enter the subbody world, we often meet unknown uncomfortable emotion, because the basic composition between consciousness and subconsciousness is changed from daily conditions.

Our daily bodies are bound by very few kinds of feeling: glad, sad, angry, easy, and so on. These are archetypes in emotion channel.

But so many variations and gradations of emotions and feelings are streaming in our subbody world. It is impossible to name them.

When we meet an unknown emotion, it is felt strange strongly, and we feel resistance. We don't want to receive them and try to escape from them.

This is the edge in emotion channel.

At the first stage, we can just recognize them. After then, slowly, slowly we can become friend with them.

 

6. Human relationship channels

Our daily bodies are bound by archetypes: human role, family role, and gender. Ego has only a gender. But subbody have multi-gender. Sometimes subbodies are a fetus, baby, boy, girl, mother, father, old man, old woman, and genderless being.

Subbodies have "nth sex". When we open our “nth sex”, we can transform the female body, male body and so many genders bodies.

But it is pretty difficult, because one of the strongest archetypes: Anima, Animus disturbs the process. We are so strongly bound by them. This is the hardest edge work. We need to wait for the timing when we are ready to face it for a long time.

Also, I continued to try to be released from my Anima for a long time, but still I cannot succeed it.

7. World image= self-image channel
When we meet a subtle uncomfortable feeling: "I don't know what is happening, but something is wrong.”, we encounter an edge in world image- self-image channel. 
When our world image and self-image are fitting, we feel ease and self-confidence. We can keep proper will. But when there is a subtle gap between them, we cannot keep will properly. We are disturbed by this unpleasant feeling. This is the edge in world=self-channel. 
It is happening always, but our daily bodies ignore them normally until this gap grows up to a body-mind syndrome or sickness. 
Then suddenly we are attacked by a nightmare, somatic syndrome, and sickness.
When we die down our ego state, we can catch the subtle signal of this edge.
Actually, we meet them so often. The subtle gap is always happening.
The focusing method by Gendrine is to listen up to this subtle gap. He named it "felt sense". 
But on the other hand, when our ego meets a good situation, good luck, fortunately, also at the moment the subtle gap between world image and self-image comes up.
This moment is the crisis, if we don't notice it, our egos are bound by conceit, proud, ego-inflation, and so on easily.
In my school, when a new idea works successfully, I often encounter this crisis: my ego comes up with a glad and proud face, " I got it!", and when I am bound by it, I fail in becoming student's subbodies.
I have to recognize the bitter fact what is "Ego cannot become a midwife". 
I need still a long process to train myself. 

8. Thinking channel
Thinking itself the strongest edge of ego. When we are bound by thinking, we cannot resonate enough. 
We need to release from thinking so often. 
The only good way is this: when we get a new idea, we should write it down soon on a notebook nearby, and forget it immediately, then we can come back to subbody mode. Always we need to effort shifting our consciousness from thinking mode to listening mode constantly in all moments to be released from the ego process. But thinking is the biggest edge for us. Our daily body believes that we cannot live without thinking like a human.
It may true, but it is not enough to become a life. We need to release us from the biggest illusion what we are "Human". When we think that we are human, we are bound by the biggest proud. 
The feeling of human hides the deep fact what we are just life.
When we are released from the illusion of human, we can recover the life resonance which can resonate with the weakest being in the world.