Transparent Eye for Counter Transference

 Transparent Eye for Counter Transference

Transference and Counter Transference

Past memories of dissonance with something come up in the present relationship. It happens both sides between student and midwife through resonance. We experience the most uncomfortable feeling each other. This is one of the hard processes of subbody-cobody sharing.
Counter Transference is one of the phenomena what should be noted for midwifing.
It often happens between unborn subbody and midwife's hidden subbody. 
Each subbody doesn't know well how to resonate with the world.
Sometimes, subbody has "Baby Ego", "Ego Inflation", "Extreme Fantasy", "Denial tendency", "Kan" which is disabled to move, and so on.
The midwife is always resonating with all of them and influenced them deeply. Unconsciously, midwife's worst memory, trauma, flashback, Evil archetype are activated and possesses midwife. This is the Counter-Transference. The midwife needs to be transparent with these phenomena as the Life resonance. 
But, always it happens in the unconscious process, then the awareness is always delayed. After facing the fact of a miscarriage of the fetus subbody of a student, midwife realizes the big fault.
So, how many unborn subbodies I have killed.
By small mistake, Midwife becomes a killer.

Synchronized Resonance between participants and midwife

One day, a denial subbody which is hidden in the darkness of my body woke up in the midnight, and met an awareness, wrote an article.

<Multi-layered counter-transference>
Co-researcher’s Trauma Qualia and my own it resonate double beyond all borders. Accept them as just the Life Resonance of Qualia.

<Immediate recover>
When midwife realized the own fault, immediately we should try to recover it. It is the hardest thing for the midwife. Because, the midwife is bound by the guilty; "I did mistake again, I have killed a subbody”, and depression attacks midwife.

 

Transparency

There is only one radical way to recover it that becomes Transparency. Accept it if you want to become a midwife. All negative Qualia are the richest source of creation. Accept even your condition becomes very bad. See every phenomenon as the Life Resonance Qualia with Transparency.

“Bad is good, good is bad in this world.”

There is no dualism at all in Life. Good/bad judgment belongs only in human illusion.

Decide that Midwife is to live in a world that is the complete opposite of everyday life.