Edgework and "Mengen"

 Edgework and "Mengen"

This morning a co-researcher guided the class as a midwife.
He started from the edge work. It was good timing.
Edge means the hard conflict Qualia between the first process of the daily body and the second process of subbody. 
Now plenty of subbody and cobody came out from all students, but the daily body doesn't know about subbody, then the hard struggle is going to start at each new student. 
We became pair and gave the edge Qualia each other, and shared 
together by all.
Pan accepted all of edge Qualia as a midwife.
Various edge Qualia we shared as the following;
Qualia which is about to be crushed by something
Qualia to be tightened
Qualia breath becomes difficult, etc.
When I have received the edge Qualia of Pan, it was a movement that the body is deflected to the limit by someone.
When I received it, suddenly I was attacked by severe pain and stiffness in systemic instantaneous.
I noticed that "Ah! This is "the Mengen!". 
I have back pain already for 40 years, my fourth lumbar spondylolisthesis has crashed and slid. 
I had been attacked by sudden big pain at my lower back from the 30s so often. I had become bedridden for a full week is about 10 times, bedridden for three days about 30 times, countless pain of the day.
Momentary pain is still running sometimes.
When I received pan's edge Qualia, it was probably only slightly exceed the maximum permissible limit for me. 
There is a proverb that the "The last straw breaks even spine of the camel."
When a stimulus become beyond the limits, panic ran through the body along with the pain. 
I noticed that "Ah! This is the Mengen!".
"Mengen" is a special phenomenon which an old hard Qualia come out again in the healing process of acupuncture and acupressure. 
Mengen is the flashback of the previous muscle-nervous tension pattern of the body which guarded the old problem of body/mind. 
It comes out with mental tension and physical tension is bubbling up at the same time in non-dual realm, and lead to severe pain and mental panic.
Mengen and the flashback of trauma in a psycho-neurosis are the same resonance process beyond the time.
Fortunately, I could immediately ask the active acupressure treatment by Kats, then it calmed down soon.
While midwives always take all the edges of all students
must be recommended.
In the process we must be aware of the limit control carefully.
In the edgework, if the stimulus is too less, it does not work at all. And it goes over the limit, it must hurt. 
Anyway, it was a great harvest to get what is the Mengen by my real body experience, though I could not write well by words right now.