A Girl / Tatsumi Hijikata

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23. A girl who plans evil deeds in the rain

 A girl who plans evil deeds in the rain
              Hijikata wrote this sentence at the first line for his last Butoh-fu of "Solo in the Quiet house" (1973).
Who is this girl? Where did she come from?
              Hijikata was born as the last son. He had five elder brothers and five elder sisters. He loved a sister who was taken a picture with him when he entered an elementary school (See above photo was taken around 1935)
She had to leave him to work in the far-off town from her home village soon. But Hijikata had traveled to meet her by long train after entering elementary school. He faced his sister who dressed with so loudly clothes and gaudy make up.

Why my sister had to gone?
Why did she dress such colorful clothes?
What did she do at the far-off town?

              Young Hijikata had to ask himself many times in the dream around the mystery of his sister. But he as a child could not solve the mystery, though when he became an adult, it was so easy to understand the cruel circumstances.
              Later he talked about this, "In that age when Japanese nation-state fight against the world, our northern area had to supply three things for the nation-state. The first one was rice, the second was the horse, and the third was women."
It was a big tide which no one could neither resist nor escape at that age.
              Hijikata spends time alone with dressed his dead sister's dress (Japanese Kimono) and with long hair for long years in his forties.
He told, “I breed a dead sister in my darkness of body. We live together. I learned how to comb long hair, how to behave with the lady's dress. I learn everything about her in every morning.
              There are so complex relationships, more than that she falls down in the darkness, I also fall down. When she stands up, I fall down. When I devote to the creation of a butoh piece, she gives me the advice to stop all expressions. Dead sister is my real teacher of butoh. We need to lesson hard with the dead constantly. We need to live together with the dead."

Hijikata spent a long time with his dead sister. it continued from his childhood to forties. Hijikata might enter in her dream world so many times.

"What dream did you dream? Your whole life was as if in the hard rain. Many men's bodies had passed through your body. Nothing must have remained in your dream. You must plane only evil deeds in your dreams. You needed to take back which you have lost in your life. Let me know the details of your nightmares.

In these long processes, his dead sister's Qualia and his body transformed into oneness. It fermented, decayed, and crystallized into a butoh piece in the depth of the darkness of the body.
He wrote the first sentence at his last butoh score.

A girl who plans evil deeds in the rain.
             

And he transformed his sister, she starts the dance. Her outline transformed into an animal shape. She who plans so many evil deeds, and transformed into one after another.

Hijikata's Butoh-fu had more than three hundred lines with so complicated and precise choreographies. But his dead sister could accept all of them. The evil deed was an extreme creation of butoh. It was a completion of the weakened body butoh method.

He could be burned out and released from the bind by the anima as his dead sister. After this performance, he stopped dancing and concentrated in choreography with his company. He entered into another process of creation. He continued to investigate n the next stage of weakened body technique.

He wrote in his notebook at his fifties, we need the butoh which is called the name of life. We need to enter the non-dual world before the self and the others have separated. Butoh has to sink down into the hidden logic dimension where we associate with the spirits without any medium. These images were his last investigation for butoh which is called the name of life.
But he had to stop his investigation before it comes out with a form.

Now is the time which we continue the investigation toward the next stage of butoh.

What is the Butoh of Life?
Investigate in it together.