1. Very Subtle Qualia
Listening to subtle Qualia of the darkness of the body
I often use the word “Listening”.
What is Listening?
What do we listen to?
When we listen to the body, at first we can sense only ambiguous something that is not able to recognize clearly Is this sensation? Or the imagination? Or a dream? Illusion? memory?
We cannot distinguish at all.
It is Non-dual Qualia.
Qualia is everything that cell’s Life resonates with. Life resonates with Qualia of Gravity, Sunshine, Air, temperature, moisture, sound, smell…
Life is always resonating with these physical Qualia of environment. And not only those present physical Qualia but also inner memory Qualia of those that are reserved as the Life memory during the four billion years Life history.
Both are always resonating double. We call the former “Outer Qualia” the latter “Inner Qualia”.
We listen to the double resonance of both though we cannot distinguish as well.
But, during the listening, the non-dual Qualia shift to a certain channel Qualia; bodily sensation, movement, visual, audio, emotion, human relationship, world=self-image, and thinking channels so that we can catch it clearly. We follow it by the whole body-mind until it becomes a certain subbody movement.
When we co-research it with some friends, sometimes a friend’s movement affects you, or your movement becomes other’s movement.
Listen to the process, taste the resonance deeply. It is proof that the border between self and others disappears.
Listen to your own Qualia and other’s Qualia as well.
Listen to inside 50% and outside 50%. This is Transparent listening.
You will meet not only your friends but also meet the world Qualia.
In the world Qualia, it includes not only the physical world but also the invisible world Qualia that Hijikata called it “Behind world”.
Those are the Qualia that we listen to.
24-hour Listening
When we are entering into the real creation process, if you want to be a real Butoh creator, we need to stop thinking and talking completely. Keep infinite silence 24-hour.
Only in the infinite silence, you can listen to very subtle Qualia stream. Qualia are always changing and streaming in your Life, but it is extremely subtle. If you activate the language thinking and talking, immediately you lose the subtle Listening.
Keep listening to what you cannot remember in the darkness of the body. And at the same time keep subtle medimotion that your body is moved by someone with very subtle Qualia from all directions.
Keep the body to follow the unusual forms always.
If you continue these two, there will always be some form and movement of the body, there is a moment when A specific Qualia and body movement connected and suddenly crystallized as one. Hunt it, it is your subbody! It is important to continue this work always.
As long as you continue it, it will be possible to complete solo or cobody piece for an hour in a year.
The movement consists of mostly strange movements and shapes. The memories that were forgotten to connect with are also full of strange, dusky, hardly o be explained.
By linking them together without any meaning or context, it becomes an unknown thing that you do not understand well. That is the characteristic of subbody=cobody.
When the movement led by one Qualia is over, it is the timing to accept the next subbody. In this process, strange developments are born one after another.
When you dance with others, the border between subbody and cobody disappear, your subbody become cobody, other's cobody becomes your subbody through Life Resonance.
We become unknown Rhizome that connect freely and separate flexible at any part of the body at any moment.
Become swarm, and become an alone wolf!
Transform individual to group instantly and reverse!
Sometimes it jumps to an unexpected place. Do not mind at all.
If you add a story that you can explain with your consciousness, the tree of meaning will immediately rise and it becomes boring. The chaos that nobody understands is OK. Life is moved only to something that has never been seen before. It will be over if the audience is convinced with the head. Constantly betray their expectations and keep even yourself amazed.
This is the essence of Life-Resonance Butoh that has become lucid recently and I can tell now it transparently.
Even sleeping time, we can continue Listening
We sink down to deeper research of the darkness of the body. We expand the Qualia listening from only school hours to 24-hour. Continue Medimotion that is moved by someone for 24-hour.
During sleep time, also we are moved by unknown Qualia which sometimes it becomes a dream.
Sometimes our mind state shifts from medimotion mode to meditation mode that we continue Qualia thinking with subtle Qualia without opening the movement channel. Taste the swaying among both processes.
We integrate the Subbody method, Hijikata Butoh method and Deleuze philosophy with researching "Quiet House" Butoh-fu.
Quiet House: The building of Subbody school transforms into the Quiet House that nobody talks anymore. We keep complete silence and listen to the darkness of the body.
The Red God: Life is moved by unknown Qualia always. The medimotion is what we moved by someone. This "someone" is "The Red God". The 24-hour medimotion means that we feel the invisible Red God for 24-hour.
Hijikata isolated himself for some years and meditate about his dead sister to invent his necessary last Butoh.
A girl who plans an evil deed in the rain: This is Hijikata's main motif of The Quiet House. We start researching each one's motivation for creation. Until we find own necessity of Butoh creation, we continue to seek it in the darkness of the body.
A fine spider's thread that runs on the forehead:
Beggar:
Cat Waist:
Behind World:
To control these four elements indigently is Hijikata's secret technique of the weakened body. He segmented his body into thousands of details and transformed various things.
Deleuze said <Differentiation and Differenciation> as same as Hijikata, to segment into different parts and each part transforms differently.
Garbage disposal place:
When I rubbed a mirror, there was a swaying shadow of flower:
A fragile sound collapsed in a shed:
Can Factory:
The inner Qualia of cell's Life memories are resonating with multiple Behind World.
It is the Rhizome which is able to connect freely and separate flexibly.
Now finally we can integrate Hijikata method, Subbody method, and Deleuze philosophy.
2. Non-dual=Multidimantional Qualia
I use often “Non-dual”, “Qualia is resonating in Non-dual and Multi-dimensional realm”. Qualia are generated through the Life resonance that each cells Life resonates with various environments and change of own bodily conditions. Even one-celled creature like bacteria or ameba is resonating with infinite multi-dimensional Qualia and interlaced complicatedly. The adult human body has 100 trillion cells. Each cell’s Life is resonating through infinite Qualia with the environment always, resonating with the gravity, sunshine, air, Oxygen, temperature, moisture, sound and not only those physical present Qualia but also all of those inner memories which are reserved in the cell as the Life memories. Those Qualia are resonating with multi-layered, interlaced, and intricately intertwined beyond time and space. It is not possible to discriminate separately by the dualistic consciousness. When we listen to the darkness of the body at first we can’t recognize whether it is the sensation, imagination, dream, illusion. That’s why we call it “Non-dual”. Originally this word is from old oriental meditator who have continued to listen to the darkness of the body. Also, they have met with this Non-dual Qualia, and became familiar with them.
Adding this, Qualia is interlacing and transforming at each moment. We feel that diverse Qualia are interchanging momentary. Because Qualia are generated through the Life resonance. Life can catch the change of the cell’s body condition with the subtle change of the resonance pattern of the String. (See chapter 1 Mystery of Life, Qualia, and Resonance). Subbody Resonance Butoh is to listen to these very subtle Qualia that is interlacing and changing momentarily and dance the precise transformation of Life. That’s why we need to stop language thinking and continue to listen to the infinite silence for 24-hour. Only through continuing this we can be aware of that Life is invaded and disturbed by how much elements on the earth. Then we can live as Life with opening infinite creativity, originality, and resonativity (resonance ability).
Non-dual⇔Dual Sway and Rhizome⇔Tree sway
Non-dual Qualia is Rhizome, there is no center, no hierarchy, it’s complete chaos. All creatures expect of human are living with this Non-dual and Rhizome Qualia in nature. But our human had invented language. The language is dual. When a moment a word is generated, it divides inside that the word means and outside that the word doesn’t mean. And a Tree-like hierarchical grammar system was built by combining them. The language is bound by dualism and Tree hierarchy system. Our brain is a conversion device between Non-dual=Rhizome Qualia and Dual=Tree system. There are constant swaying between Non-dual and Dual, Rhizome and Tree.
In our brain, the dualistic language is generated from Non-dual =Rhizome Qualia. Our daily consciousness doesn’t notice of this hidden process but the language is always supported by the Non-dual Qualia.
3. Qualia that Life can’t resonate well
Listening to the Qualia that your Life could not resonate
well with
Especially important Qualia to listen to is unknown uncomfortable Qualia that your Life cannot resonate well. We forget those immediately but the body can remember it. Listen to them carefully and patiently. They are the special rich source of creation. Hijikata had continued to collect them throughout his life. It is called Kan (disabled) Qualia. (See “Flower of Kan” in the chapter 9 Butoh-fu)
Listening to the Qualia that have never repeated
Focus on the very short-term Qualia that seems to appear for milliseconds and immediately disappear.
Special Qualia that would be a very important source of creation is hidden in the depth of the darkness of the body with multiple entanglements. It is hard to appear.
Those very rare Qualia would be the precious source of novel creation.
Research the very rare Qualia that have never repeated.
Our ego repeats positive Qualia every moment; “I’m OK”, “I’m strong”, “I’m polite”, “I’m good” and so on. Our daily mind is full of those repeated Qualia that support your self-identity or ego. In those repeated Qualia there is no space that new Qualia meet other novel Qualia. No resonant emergency happens.
On the contrary, listen to the very rare Qualia that you will meet for the first time. They have so rich possibility to meet another Qualia and new Qualia will be born. Those rare and new-born Qualia are the most important source of your creation.
Dream of not going well
I dreamed a series of 'not going well' dream several times these days. At first, Hijikata Tatsumi joined in my class and he tries something but it's not going well. So, something is wrong, but I did not understand what this dream means. Next night also Hijikata appeared again, and he tried to make a sequence of movement by following my Jo-Ha-Kyu method, but then also it is not going well. I felt a very uncomfortable feeling. But I know that this kind of uncomfortable feeling is always to tell me some important thing, and so I keep this feeling and tried to listen to it.
Three days ago, also I dreamt that a young female student tried to do something it seemed almost OK, but at the last moment, it was not going well. She asked me "What is wrong? What do you feel when something is not going well for you?"
I was moved by this question. Because this feeling is so familiar to me. At the last moment of this process, I encountered the feeling that some delicate thing is wrong, and I cannot succeed. It told me the goal is very close. If you find only a small thing, it guides you to the goal. But this feeling is so uncomfortable. I understand that she feels the same feeling in front of goal with real Qualia.
Last night, I dreamed the same series of a dream. In this time, a small child who is my staff Ramesh's son Ravi tried something in my class but something disturbs him. I felt the same uncomfortable feeling like the same with Ravi in my chest very strongly. Then I noticed that I am resonating with Ravi, and I feel the same feeling like him.
I remembered that I felt the same uncomfortable feeling when something is 'not going well'. These series of dreams told me that I felt the real Qualia of resonance, though I could not notice until today.
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