Life Resonance Himalaya

  "Technique of Shisha"   Watching Life from death A strange condition continues in my body and mind after leaving from Himalaya. I was so tired during the two weeks Himalaya Butoh Festival. I could not sleep during the term. I am carried by unknown space quietly as dead during the travel. Exactly saying, it seems a condition of so-called "Bardo" in Tibetan Buddhism. It is another time-space between Life and death. In Buddhism, it is believed that the dead floats in the Bardo during 49 days after the death. Also, I felt as if I am floating in the Bardo during the two months travel from Himalaya, via Switzerland, and Greece. I met various foreign scenery and things during the travel; I resonated with them as only one resonance until dying. I cannot bring them into the dead world. I felt every Qualia as only one chance in Life. Even subtle Qualia of swaying leaf, bird song, floating cloud, I could feel so brilliant and each of them is so rich and unique. I could feel ...

  "Technique of Shisha"   Watching Life from death A strange condition continues in my body and mind after leaving from Himalaya. I was so tired during the two weeks Himalaya Butoh Festival. I could not sleep during the term. I am carried by unknown space quietly as dead during the travel. Exactly saying, it seems a condition of so-called "Bardo" in Tibetan Buddhism. It is another time-space between Life and death. In Buddhism, it is believed that the dead floats in the Bardo during 49 days after the death. Also, I felt as if I am floating in the Bardo during the two months travel from Himalaya, via Switzerland, and Greece. I met various foreign scenery and things during the travel; I resonated with them as only one resonance until dying. I cannot bring them into the dead world. I felt every Qualia as only one chance in Life. Even subtle Qualia of swaying leaf, bird song, floating cloud, I could feel so brilliant and each of them is so rich and unique. I could feel ...

  "Technique of Shisha"   Watching Life from death A strange condition continues in my body and mind after leaving from Himalaya. I was so tired during the two weeks Himalaya Butoh Festival. I could not sleep during the term. I am carried by unknown space quietly as dead during the travel. Exactly saying, it seems a condition of so-called "Bardo" in Tibetan Buddhism. It is another time-space between Life and death. In Buddhism, it is believed that the dead floats in the Bardo during 49 days after the death. Also, I felt as if I am floating in the Bardo during the two months travel from Himalaya, via Switzerland, and Greece. I met various foreign scenery and things during the travel; I resonated with them as only one resonance until dying. I cannot bring them into the dead world. I felt every Qualia as only one chance in Life. Even subtle Qualia of swaying leaf, bird song, floating cloud, I could feel so brilliant and each of them is so rich and unique. I could feel ...

  Basic conditioning to edge work, and de-self-conditioning   During searching for old photos of swaying conditioning, I met nostalgic pictures in the School photo folder of 2006. At that time, the school term is one month to three months, then we could enjoy the beginning stage of the subbody process.   There were three processes in the slideshow above. 1. Swaying meditation to free resonance 2. Rolling conditioning to free resonance 3. Reso-touch to free resonance.   Still, now, we follow the same process in the beginning. And proceed to various self or group research processes. This variation became so developed in the past decade, students are able to explore the darkness of the body deeper. Edge---Biggest difference between ten years ago and now One of the biggest differences is 'Edge'. In the short term, students may not encounter hard strange edge Qualia. Or in case of meeting something hard, they finished school and left. But now school term extended to a min...

  De-self-conditioning   When your Ego and Self are activated helplessly by a storm of emotions and feelings and cannot get out of it, please try this de-self-conditioning in such a case. Leave from the place where you are excited. Find a quiet place, in the standing position or sitting position. Feel the breath of Life. Your hundred trillion of cells in your body is activated to get oxygen and feel that the body is going swell just a little while relaxing very slowly. And after a while, some part of the body starts fading also. Let your body relax in the comfortable Life sway. Swayback just one millimeter, from your present position to another dimension of the dead. Stretch your back a little bit and move toward the behind world. Become a transparent body, feel that you are missing from this living world. Watch this living world from the dead world. Enjoy this de-self-condition, until your mind and body become silence.  

  When ego comes out  It took for decades to be able to catch the moment when the ego comes out for me. Now I control myself to be subbody mode in a whole day, otherwise, I cannot enter into student's subbodies and resonate with it from inside. But sometimes when the morning conditioning is not enough, my ego comes up and possess me, I noticed twice times in this week. Maybe I felt that my work for this year has finished, then conditioning becomes loose. It is one of the proofs of loose that my old poet character came out this week. I have lost concentration for keeping midwife mode. Then many small fragmental egos come out and possessed me. When ego comes out, it has a particular signal. Ego is bound by dissonance mode. Because ego was born when the complete resonance with the womb world was broken, and ego had to make oneself as if it were a war orphan. The ego feels always conflict, fear, anger, and complaint to the others. It is the first characteristic of an ego that ego ...

  There is nothing to be ashamed Whatever happens in our darkness of body, there is nothing to be ashamed. All of what is moving in the darkness of body are phenomena of life. When we watch them by daily eyes, it looks ugly, ashamed, miserable, but when we open eyes as a life, there is nothing ugly, ashamed, miserable. There are so strange Qualia streams, moving, desires, impulses, imaginations, illusions. All of them are phenomena of life. Who can give decisions to Life? If your ego feels that I can decide everything, it is just the illusion of ego inflation. During subbody dancing by the naked body for long years, I got it; "There is nothing to be hidden and to be ashamed in the darkness of body.". There is nothing to hide, on the contrary, we can resonate deeply with all of them among people. Stop judgment by the daily mind, and open all of the subbodies for sharing. Subbody Butoh is neither ego expression nor self-expression. It is the creative expression of life. They ar...